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So I have gotten a few messages from a few people about my opinions and posts, journal. Some, I was told, "told" on me. hahaha...jeez. I guess they have nothing better to do.



You can write the most depraved piece of shit words on here, but I can't say that it's not right to own people? How fucked up is that? Again, I ask you what this world is coming to. Too many kids growing up without hugs I guess and no parents to watch over them? I see it all the time with my daughter's friends. Angry, drinking, smoking, running the streets, hanging out all night, not going to school, violent, negative, having sex, having babies....you name it. But not my daughter. We are close, we are friends. We respect each other and people in general. My 17 3/4 year old daughter is wonderful and sweet and kind to others...so proud of her. A real humanitarian, like myself.





Anyway, I wrote this to someone and I will post it for you all to read. I do not need to explain myself, but I am so often misunderstood, and so I give this "statement".



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"I was just stating my opinion on the matter, since everyone else feels they are free to do so. I rarely make waves. I feel deep in my heart that it is wrong to take away another's rights simply because we can. That is all I was saying. And in my opinion, the world needs to stop stepping on the little guy. Manners have gone...morals have gone. It's just sad. It wasn't directed at you personally. But by reading that post about forced inductions you wrote and then one another wrote about how she was forcefully inducted, it really got me thinking about what things have come to; and I had to say something. I am sorry if you felt I was personally attacking you. I was not, nor was I attacking Cancer. What he does is his business. But I have a right to my opinion just as everyone else does, and mine is just as valid. I was disappointed as well, reading you have decided to go against what you used to do, and was right and follow the pack. You did say since everyone else is, you will too. But that is your prerogative. =)



Seems lots of people have chose to hone in on the "emotional rape" term. I meant that by damaging a person's emotionally welfare. That is something I am very familiar with, from my whole life, having panic attacks, so I know what I am talking about. Those that choose to compare it to physical rape are missing the point and are not worth discussing this with. I had a girl write me about it, and not very nice. Seems I am making waves all over. Whatever. I am a good person and I care about people. People love me for that. Those that don't are jealous. I'm down to earth and I care a lot about rights. If those are my worst traits, then oh well, huh? hahaha...."



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Actually sometimes I do make waves. In my family I am known to stand up for things and am rarely quiet about what I care about deeply and passionately.



Hell, I was in a pro-choice rally when I was 5 months pregnant! My mom and I had our pictures taken with our KEEP ABORTION LEGAL signs and it was on the front page of the paper the next day. That's just me.

I wish someone would open a Coven of Buddha, or of Zen. Obviously I am not going to get to Sire anytime soon. Just in the break I took this last time, I dropped a level. Yikes that happened fast! I guess on a positive note, I get to have a different status to look at for awhile longer.

I was watching Casualities of War on AMC. I just saw the part where the soldiers take the young Vietnamese girl from her home against her will. It was sad and it reminded me of the inductions here against people's will. I started thinking about man's inhumanity against man. I think about how people think small acts of smallness and pettiness, and greed and meanness are of no meaning, significance or consequence. But that is not true at all. Our world, our lives, are made up of these actions, these seemingly insignificant events. What sort of person you are inside is a result of what you do in each moment, of every day; the decisions you make. And we all have a choice. Free will. There are consequences, not good, and we all pay for the harmful and fallacious behavior of our fellow man.



It is not right or moral to tread upon the rights of another. It is not right to put more hatred and negativity into this world. All that negative energy affects us all. None of us are immune. It will fuck us up, it will fuck our children up....it will end our world.



Think about that shit the next time you want to act out against another just for the thrill of it or on a power trip to appear you have control. You don't. None of us do and to think so is an illusion. Be kind. Have some character. Be above the pettiness. Help someone out without recognition. Evolve for god's sake.

http://vampirerave.com/message.php?message=459867







A new thread emerged and of course, I had to say something too. I am a humanitarian, after all.







"I joined this site when it did not have forced inductions a few years ago. No houses, no covens. Just people.



Being newly out of a House, I am completely against forced inductions. It's not cool, not right and I am having to fight my way out of these places just to be left alone. I won't follow orders of some place that forces me against my will. That is emotional rape, in my opinion.



After already having to deal with this on my own, it seems to me, that any House or Coven that forcefully inducts someone against their will is not respectful to human kind, is desperate, and is more interested in favor and points than the human condition. Don't you realize that invading someone like that against their will is damaging? They feel they have no control and that is a horrible feeling to have, and surely takes away what was once a fun experience.



It's not an honor, it's our rank being exploited and used for their power trip.



People aren't here to be used as currancy."

Juno sent this to me because I had "I am as nutty as squirrel poop" in my profile. haha....cute. Thought I would put it up here and for Jason too. ;)

Eternal, Octo, and then this person inducted me against my will the other day. So I wrote her about my situation and she booted me out. But she said, "...normally they don't". Normally they don't? Hmm....







babiesgirl has kicked you out of The Coven of The Stone Guardians.







I think we need to be able to accept or deny invitations to join a House or Coven. I saw images thread on it in the forum and thought I would add my 2 cents, after reading other's responses.



http://vampirerave.com/message.php?message=459676





My response to it all:



" "joined a site where there is forced induction..."



Actually I joined a site that did not have forced inductions a few years ago. No houses, no covens. Just people.



Being newly out of a House, I am completely against forced inductions. Not cool, not right and I am having to fight my way out of these places just to be left alone. I won't follow orders of some place that forces me against my will. That is emotional rape, in my opinion.



After already having to deal with this on my own, it seems to me, that any House or Coven that forcefully inducts someone against their will is not respectful to human kind, is desperate, and is more interested in favor and points than the human condition."







I knew this would come up with me, having to request to be kicked out of a Coven after I left Sebatian's pad. But I didn't think people would be so bold....well, ok, I know they are. People get on a power trip, sadly, and feel they have to tread on other's feelings and rights as a human being. They have done it to each other and animals since the dawn of time...oppression, fascisim......



*thinking about it all*



When we first started the Houses, each of us Admins were told to pick a certain amount of people to induct and then some more and then a few more. Boy that was a job. I didn't go for status though, but instead read SO MANY profiles on here. That's one thing that just sent me over the edge. ha......really.



Anyway, after that though, I sat back and let them come to me if they wanted to, or asked people to join. And they did.



I wrote Cancer and asked him about an option to accept or decline an invite from a House or Coven, but I doubt he will consider it long. Would be nice though.

The Aztec calendar set out the mathematical formulas according to which the whole universe was organized which governed the actions of men and Gods alike. The calendar is actually two: the Xiupohualli or the count of the days and the Tonalpohualli or the count of destiny. The calendar had to be consulted through the priests before engaging in any activity whether it was farming, warfare, religion or commerce. In addition to the count of the days, it also has astronomical data like the phases of the moon and Venus, and the years of Mercury and Mars. The calendar also mentions the four eras of humanity know as ‘suns’ before our own: all ended in cataclysm. The sun that is now ours, the fifth one, Nahui Ollin (“four earthquake”) is supposed to end by cataclysmic earthquakes. The Aztecs attributed the invention of the calendar to the God Quetzalcoatl. The calendar weighs 25 tons and has a diameter of eleven feet.

Someone sent me lyrics to a song as their message to me. That was a first. Have never met them before.







On 09:43:26 Aug 22 2007 Uzziel wrote:



James Blunt - You're Beautiful





My life is brilliant.



My life is brilliant

My love is pure.

I saw an angel.

Of that I'm sure.

She smiled at me on the subway.

She was with another man.

But I won't lose no sleep on that,

'Cause I've got a plan.



You're beautiful. You're beautiful.

You're beautiful, it's true.

I saw your face in a crowded place,

And I don't know what to do,

'Cause I'll never be with you.



Yes, she caught my eye,

As we walked on by.

She could see from my face that I was,

Fucking high,

And I don't think that I'll see her again,

But we shared a moment that will last 'till the end.



You're beautiful. You're beautiful.

You're beautiful, it's true.

I saw your face in a crowded place,

And I don't know what to do,

'Cause I'll never be with you.



La la la la la la la la la



You're beautiful. You're beautiful.

You're beautiful, it's true.

There must be an angel with a smile on her face,

When she thought up that I should be with you.

But it's time to face the truth,

I will never be with you.

By now you know about Eugene, the brother of Seether front man, commiting suicide. I met him once on the tour bus last year. He was cuter in person and was nice. He had a cool accent and all the girls were following him around, and I would have too if I were with someone and he was there. HA.....or if I had had a Coors Light in me.....



Our friend that runs sound for them said Eugene was sitting there in the hotel room with some people, taking pics and hanging out, jumped on a chair and dove out the window as if he expected to fly. He wasn't on drugs or alcohol and didn't show any signs of depression. But he did text his brother right before he did it, saying that some people belong in this world, but that he was not one of those people and then lept out the window. His brother was running up to his room as he did it.



We noticed they cancelled the August dates but I believe Sept. is still on and a busy month it is! We may go see them in November when they are here, along with 3 Days Grace and Breaking Benjamin. I like "So cold". If we go, we will do the backstage thing, which would be cool because it's a big venue this time. Will see though. Depends on several things and the drummer (I think it's the drummer. He was in that other big band from OKC...oh what was it?) gets first dibs since he is from OKC and has family and friends. Which, our friend is from here too, so....it's a race I guess. ha....

Cancer's picture, from this view (looking at the thumbnail of who's on), looks like he has his shoulders back, chest out and is saying, "You want some of this?". Bad to the bone!

So, http://vampirerave.com/profiles2.php?profile=CountVitus left me a 5 on my profile. I don't know about you, but when you work on a profile for a long time, sweating the layout, colors, picture placement, wording and all that bullshit, you tend to expect good ratings. And generally I get them. But 5's offend me now. ha.....Eh, call me shallow, call me pissed, call me whatever....but don't call me a 5.



So I left him this:







"5 huh? Jeez. You know how much time goes into a profile of that magnitude? I see your 5 and lower it 4.



Have a great day."

Lost my messages......damn.



But I did get a new avatar pic posted. =)